The Best Change I've Ever Made

When i got to college, i went through a period of confusion and found myself feeling quite empty. I realized that what i was going through was caused by the lack of spirituality in my life. I did not have a good relationship with God because i feared him much more than i loved him. This was when i decided to challenge and question some of the things that were taught to me about my religion. When I did this, I saw my FAITH on a deeper level cuz i actually began to understand it. I finally saw the importance of having a real relationship with God. I dropped all the negative ideas that i had and began to focus on the fact that GOD is a LOVING FATHER and GREAT CONFIDANT who will always let out his HAND to HELP us STAND when we fall. This experience has not only given me a completely different perspective on my faith, but has changed the way i handle evryday situations.

I am in need

Do you know the feeling that even if there are people around you who care for you, yet you feel this loneliness, emptiness and purposelessness inside you? That's what I'm feeling right now. I don't know why. And I know I shouldn't feel this way. Because it tells something that I am not contented with my life... that I am not happy with what I have and what I am... that I'm losing hope and giving up. But I told myself why must I feel this way? I thought about God who's been my source of strength... I thought about my dreams that remind me to move ahead and go and face the next chapter of my life... I thought about my family that I have known since I've opened my eyes to the world. Well maybe I need someone to talk to right now... someone to listen... someone to lean on... a shoulder to cry on... I just need somebody to touch me and hold me in their arms.

Loneliness

Sometimes I sit here and ponder,
Am I alone or not?
My smile has seem to fade
And for years I have been forgotten.
I stood by the door.
I try to hold my head up high,
But it feels like I'm falling from the sky
I'm so torn and confused inside.
I'm hurt
Even though there so many around me.
But they don't see the pain that surrounds me.
In my mind, it rains.
When I sleep,
There are tears on my pillow as I dream.
I'm lost in my pain
Even though you're here.