Loneliness

Sometimes I sit here and ponder,
Am I alone or not?
My smile has seem to fade
And for years I have been forgotten.
I stood by the door.
I try to hold my head up high,
But it feels like I'm falling from the sky
I'm so torn and confused inside.
I'm hurt
Even though there so many around me.
But they don't see the pain that surrounds me.
In my mind, it rains.
When I sleep,
There are tears on my pillow as I dream.
I'm lost in my pain
Even though you're here.