What is this I feel

The wind is cold
It's hard to think
I feel cold
I'm shivering
But I don't like going to bed
I'd like to spend my time outside
I'd like to see the night sky,
look at the stars and the moon
whisper my thoughts to the wind
hear the leaves dancing
and just be with myself.
I don't wanna talk to anybody
I just want the time to be alone
I guess I'm just missing those moments
Those moments I get to talk to myself at nights
when I can really hear my thoughts.
Yeah, I think so...
I haven't done that for awhile.
But what is this I feel
For some reasons that I do not know
My heart is pressing me
I feel like crying...
This isn't the first time
I have always felt this way
I don't know why
I thought maybe I'm being so emotional
But for what reason and why
That..... I do not know
All I know is that
I would just like talking to my heart
And listen to what it has to say,
And my heart is pressing me again
Something is calling me.